Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Malaysian living abroad..

I just cross a blog of Malaysian girl living abroad...like to read her experience living in Australian..but pardon me,I am very annoying with her racist statement wherearea she point out that flea market in Australia is like Malaysia too...except Malaysia have more coloured people and most of it and she pointed out that Malaysia flea market full of WANTAN!!
What is wantan anyway??From my point of view,is a malay lady or girl wearing a veil or cover their hair..well for me you should be proud of your multi culture.I bet Australia also have a lot of immigrants from middle East..so why compare??Why should labelling people?If the covering lady we call wantan,then the sexy one (some flabby pour out,call it sexy??),went out market just with a boxer pant and singlet,what should we label them?A mussel wide open perhaps??
Excuse me lady...you should not be publish a public statement.
Forgive me for my sensitivity but I am proud of my Malaysia multi racial.I never condems other culture behaviour..
Maybe they are too proud living abroad....

Pearl Island

This is Penang island..I travel everyday from mainland (my home) to my office in the island..riding motorbike sometimes drive.The wind pretty strong and not for lady manner of riding..pretty tough to cross the bridge with motorbike.Total km is 13.5,I think,longest bridge in South East Asia.

Our luch today at Hameediyah Rest Campell Street..A very long queue to catch up.
Most delicious Biryani rice in Penang and lots of tourist..Located at old shop lot but the dishes is amazing..
Reasonable price..at only RM8.00 (about less than 3 USD)..Rice come with Dhall gravy,chicken and cucumber raita.

I am surely enough to miss the hectic life in here.




 Traffic jam is a common during festive season and weekend.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Thursday, August 5, 2010

My cook class..

Here some pic..i had conduct a cooking class for high school leaver...
Not so impressive like a Curtis Stone or Jamie Oliver..but with a limited budget that will do..

Its a appertizers..I created by myself.Chicken meat cook with some vege,then roll in nori leaf..,layer with a spring roll skin and deep fried..taste was good...perhaps should name it .
My appertizers..using eggplant grill,top with chicken breast and grilled capsicum.Something like italian appertizers..hmm like antipasto..Dressing is mayonnaise and mix with mango juice.

This is the maincourse..spaghetti like olio style..but add some crab meat.Small portion of spaghetti served with grill seafood (bake cod fish,crab and prawn)..quite nice..and come with napolitana sauce..
Hehe note the tall stalk..that was a lemongrass actaully.

 Sweet and sour fish..

Nasi Lemak..coconut rice

Omellette..with baked bean

hehe..my cup cake..not so good as we bake using muffing mould..but taste very nice..yummm

Nature..




Since I love so much to view blooger page with photo of their surround,here I upload some of my recent activities last week,we conducted an heritage amazing race in Penang..so contestant had to go all of the heritage site to complete their task.My station was at Armenia Street and Tropical Spices Garden,Teluk Bahang.

Sunset ..
Teluk Bahang beach,in front of Tropical Spice Garden,we having a laksa and ice kacang here..

Tropical Spice Garden entrance..the stone was brought from England in early years of Penang

 Its a tourists season..


teluk bahang beach


the counter.The receptionist can speak arab too..ticket is about RM 12/pax

Queing up for the ticket.They have tour guide to lead you to the garden.The garden smell very nice.combination of herb and spices


The beginning of the trail.Visitors are advise to rub the herb balm upon entrance as a shield from the insect

Entrance to the Tropical
Spices Garden


Additional pic...spring in Malaysia...lovely



 Spring...at my Office..near bukit mertajam..Penang

p/s:sila abaikan iklan ah long yg menganggu keindahan musim bunga tu......

Batu Feringgi Beach,Penang Malaysia...

Since I still not have cook yet,to upload my dishes picture..the this is a substitute..
well i upload this beautiful picture of my hometown..Penang.Its a place of food paradises lover,is a top ten in travel guided for best street and cheap food..all in Penang.Is a island full of tourist..along with beautiful beaches around the land..


the beach..note the rainbow..


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Blog post..

Well.well.well...
I just visited some blog here since i'am a new bloggers.I loved to read any of Malaysian blogger living abroad page with picture upload (as I dream to travel there) and a blogger whom highlight some motivation or touch of emosionally feeling in their page.
Before this i never intented to created a blog,but since i am pretty boring and heartbroke..a blog will do.
From my observation..a blog is a hang out place for:
1.Business(not my cup of tea for blogging)
2.Advertisement..knowledge
3.Religion
4.Family affairs-pic kids and all
5...maybe more..

But i'm looking for a motivation blog..like Dear Thelma on the Star mag..haven't found yet.
Then..my blog is nothing actaully to got notice by other blogger (wish only me face the issue)..grrrr..
So speak to my mind is..I should highlight something on my page,a commentar,issue or else.I am so damn bored with facebook,yahoo msger and all..so i turn to blog instead of dying monologue alone in front of my mirror.
Perhaps a food.I am once working in the hotel kitchen(upon completing my diploma in culinary) but now lost in different direction in the journey to meet end need for my daughter (actaully thats should be a good excuses..hehe)..
So I must say..I should attach some of my appertizers dishes picture in here..or write down a recipes..
ok..will do.I make a good rendang,a malay dishes,italian and can be anything..
Arghhh I am going to cook tonight and snap a few picture and post it here..I was fasting for a week now (replacement fasting for last year ramadhan) and next week ramadhan is on the corner..
Hopefully after a few picture of food here,my blog will have a visitor (seem now,I am the only visitor)..
Maybe should comment any outlet I have a meal either..

I don't intend to do business here..or put a lots of my kids picture (hey.,its my blog,not theirs) and the reason i'm blogging is to try to patch thing up..to find something else to addict for besides my kids and my brokenheart (did I mention it too much..huhhu)
So we will have other way to draw a visitor or share some interest here..we'll see.


Heart for sale

I have no heart.
..I'm done,like a wound creature hiding in dark cave,just feel a little light in the end of tunnel.Trying to heal the wound and trying to sort thing out in my life.
Being like other woman-they being betharayed,abuse and hurt emosionally yet they still survive in the marriage.Like victoria Beckham,Hillary Clinton or your sister.Apparently I am not stronger than they are to handle my emosion when trust is broke.let alone to pretending living in blissful life.

'ignorance is bliss tis folly to be wise'

That's the people expectation-to see a picture of happy family even you never know what happen behind the closed door.In our society,being divorce or lead a broken family is something lack in your life.Its a symbol of your success.You are not success in your life when your life aren't balance in the personal and professional.
I know..for men,flirting and cheating is their affair,but it hurt so much,and cost me much as the trust is laid..Yet why I felt maybe we should be like others wives-survive a marriage despite the trust is broken.

'Love grows where trust is laid, and love dies where trust is betrayed'


After a years..i'm being so heartless,as my ex boss(he's an Italian) ever said to me ''...,all the man are like that.You left him and then you'll find someone like him in the future.Love you,married you and cheating on you.Its a man issue,our thing to do as long as we are stay ,be a good father and husband.So you should close one eyes...'' .WHF?.
so should I close one of my eyes??ok,i'll closed one eyes when i'm going to kill you in your bed.
Even one eyes close,it can never repair and mend a broken heart.
OMG..you may asked,what kind of adviced like that??But thats the truth.I found it so true..
Perhaps.. either I don't want to be alone,or no man is better than him (fairytale stories is so annoying).. its complicated to figured out why.






Tuesday, August 3, 2010

BFF matters



=“A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.” =
=“Old wood best to burn, old wine to drink, old friends to trust, and old authors to read.”=


Bff..what is bff stand for..is it a bullshit fren forever?bullied fren bast***?blur fun fren??..hehe…
Well,talk about bff,I always had a BFF in my side.But seriously,there also a lots of woman don’t have a BFF..just a fren in workplace or living place.For them,BFF is not matters..as family is matters most.So when you fall apart with you husband..there you go..alone,stress and can’t pour your heart out to someone.
We need BFF as much as we need a husband indeed.Sound ironic?? give a try and you will see.Its not easy to make a BFF-like a lovers you need to understood her,lift her to her best effort and stand by her in tough and rough journey of life.That’s why..some people not making any effort to find their BFF.But believe me,once you find her (better her to a lady,coz if the man,you can be tempted to had an affair with him-what they called??platonic fren??..so the best way is find the same gender) you will know that not only you can count on her but for she’s represent the best in you that you hardly notice.
My Bff started from form 3 in SMKKM,with Zariah,Zaharah,Che Siah and me.
We are the group of classmate,gossiping and admiring a hot senior .My school days are more enjoyed,happy with them by my side..I hardly ponteng kelas coz i will miss them..we talk,gossip and the boys always jelousy when we laughed so loud.But we don’t care..Then when we had to change class after reviewing of SRP in ‘92,only me and Che Siah in the same class 5L1,best class in form 5 and 4.There I made new fren with Laila and lot more classmate…Then in my kg..i close to Azean.Since sek keb we’re close fren until high school.I always lepak at her house and hanging round.We are close until i pursue my dip in ITm..so semester break is our time to updates our story.

During my working in the Acer factory,i made fren with Faizah and Rosma.Got a Bon Jovi cassette from them on my birthday (so sweet) and we so close.But I had to left them to pursue my study in Itm.
In ITM,I made fren with Azah and Aslina..very close as we'd been eat,study and living together until we grad for 3 years.They are my best fren…although we had some issue..the matter is we still a best fren.Still remember those sweet years with them,the student years where is financial is an issue and starving together to study at night in the campuses.We been practical together,walked in KL and merayau and count almost inch of KL in Masjid India,Chow Kid,Jln Sultan Ismail and Starhill.Can’t afford to shop at starhill,we just peering and admiring the branded item sold in the boutique.
Our Fav is yong tau foo at setapak.We live in Setapak during training in KL.
Teratai Mewah Apartment-thats our rental room.So much of bitterness happen there,been chase from landlord,hehe and make noise in the middle of the night..listened and sang to a Nirvana Unplugged during those day..As with her hindi song.Only 3 of us-my senior called us a three stooges as we almost went anywhere together.
Upon complete my dip,I worked In Malacca and made fren with Jay.Shes my best fren,even now she take care of my house there and she remain my best till today.
In Penang,I made a Fren with Ann,we met during my duty in Italian Restaurant.We worked with crazy Italian Chef,so hot temper and thats make us a best fren!!to talk about him and comment bad thing bout him..complaining bout him at Nasi Kandar,hehe.She remain my best fren till today for we had been through for 5 years together.With her,I felt very comfortable to talk and able to pour my heart and vice versa.Even if we not meeting for a month,we will miss each other.

We always arrange a dinner or lunch together,to discuss any issue,either in formal or personal matter.She is not like me,she a tough girl,not easily drawn to a man,not easily give up and focus to her goal.She can live alone with her son,don’t need any man to be by her side.Whereas in my side,I look brutal and tough outside and physically but actaully dalam hati ada taman..grr...I am jiwang person..so anything regarding to my heart-I seek for her advice.

We did talk a lots, shes my BFF who know me,identify me and can see deeply into myself that sometime even I hardly notice…Remind me of my goal and always wanted me to focus on my kids.She sometimes will take care of my kids during my absent.She is like rich person,all she put on her is a branded item,MNG,GAP,tissot,Kimora..you name it.Even I can’t afford to her style.
Together we endured a series of life eventh that has created a wonderful relationship.

Beside her,I am also have my Bff in Shah Alam.Lin.Met her during my practical In Kenyir Lake in 1997.And we lost contact until we meet in Facebook at 2010.
I been pay her visit recently after 12 years apart and for me shes still my BFF.Still care for me and support me in my hard time.She been married to a handsome man and had a 3 kids.What a nice life…She’s still the same person i'd know for 12 years ago,only more mature,focusing more to her family and living life the fullest.
I love all my BFF and i am proud to say that my BFF is my other half.
With them,I felt complete and we share anything.Laughter and joy,tears and pain..they always by my side..so do I.

Even when you have the love one,but you have BFF thats matters most beside a husband,kids and family.
The barrier between BFF is no limit,where trust is lay and if you can find one BFF,its a blissful.Coz its hard to meet who can suit your mind,compatible enough to challenge your opinion and able to see the true of you.But for me,its far greater than that coz not only I have one BFF but bunch of BFF indeed.
Its not easy for you to meet a fren,close to them and share everything with them.What we always do is-,almost everyone,just meet a fren,talk something and then-forget and just communicate by coincidence.What a waste we made when we are able to find the true fren,we not putting any effort to make it into a precious long life relation.
What can I say is..I appreciate more and more my BFF.
Its more valueble,more antics and more priceless when you growing old,growing mature together and share anything in your life with her.

”Wisdom doesn’t automatically come with old age. Nothing does – except wrinkles. It’s true, some wines improve with age. But only if the grapes were good in the first place.
“I find friendship to be like wine, raw when new, ripened with age, the true old man’s milk and restorative cordial.”
Thats was so true..friendship is like wine..

As for me,Bff in mature age is far greater than in those teenagers years..the adversity,struggling and sacrifice in one package during our mature years.And they keep you strong and going on day by day.
As for me,to find a BFF is likely to find a lovers,couple,life partner,husband, and you name it..its kinda hard as that.So may i asked you,do you had BFF??




=“True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation.”=

Memori yang usang...


‘Kita musafir cuma..di alam dunia jasad mengembara
Di alam maya roh berkelana
Semuanya milik Allah jua
satu ketika,diri ini akan kembali kepada-NYA’




Helaian daunan
Yang gugur dari pohon
Mengingatkan daku
Saat dikau berlalu
Sesepi tangkaimu
Begitulah hatiku
Terasing sendiri
Meniti hari
Sejauh manakah
Terdaya ku meredah
Melepaskan diri
Dari belenggu ini
Dipanggang dibakar
Ia takkan pudar
Seraut wajahmu Ku rindu
Memori yang usang
Bagai bara merah
Kurasa hangat bahang
Yang menujah (menyala)
Memori yang usang
Mengekori langkah
Diusir dibuang tak terpadam
sayangnya hatimu
Sepejal tembok batu
Tak bisa dirayu
Dengan airmatamu
Terbuku di hati
Dengan kedegilanmu
Tak daya ku tawan semula

Sebenarnya aku just read from Oprah Winfrey topic..if you could go back to your past time,what would you change??
Mungkin sesetengah akan jawab: hmm..akan lebih appreciate our parent(so do I) and betulkan pekara2 buruk yang pernah kita lakukan..
Tapi bagi aku..kalau di beri peluang untuk kembali ke masa silam pun..rasanya macam tak ada apa yang aku nk ubah sangat..sebab pekara silam itulah yang menjadikan siapa diri aku selama ini..
Pernah tgk filem The Butterfly Effect?
~ The title refers to the butterfly effect, a popular, hypothetical example in chaos theory which illustrates how, in any dynamic system, small initial differences may, over time, lead to large unforeseen consequences.
~Wikipedia

Lakonan mantap Ashton Kutcher..kitaran hidup kita ni macam kupu-kupu jugak..berubah mengikut tahap kematangan dan masa.Moral dari filem tu yang paling berkesan di hati aku..Ashton Kutcher cuba nak balik ke masa silam,dan ubah pekara-pekara yang dia rasakan dia tak patut buat,contoh nak selamatkan chilhood sweetheart dia,to face the bully etc…Tapi sebenarnya small change in the past yang dia ubah beri impak yang besar di masa kini dan hadapan..ada harga yang terpaksa dibayar bagi membetulkan keadaan dan ianya selalu menyiksakan.Bila dia dah berjaya selamatkan childhood sweetheart dia dizaman silam,dia bangun di masa kini mendapati tangannya kudung.Dan setiap kali dia cuba mengubah zaman silam walau sedikit,ia memberi impak yang besar dimasa depan.


''In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions, where a small change at one place in a nonlinear system can result in large differences to a later state. The name of the effect, coined by Edward Lorenz, is derived from the theoretical example of a hurricane's formation being contingent on whether or not a distant butterfly had flapped its wings several weeks before.



Although the butterfly effect may appear to be an esoteric and unlikely behavior, it is exhibited by very simple systems: for example, a ball placed at the crest of a hill may roll into any of several valleys fully depending on slight differences in initial position.


The butterfly effect is a common trope in fiction when presenting scenarios involving time travel and with hypotheses where one storyline diverges at the moment of a seemingly minor event resulting in two significantly different outcomes''-wikipedia



Jadi kadang-kadang kita rasa menyesal atau bersalah dengan diri sendiri kita..aku pun macam tu jugak dan kadang-kadang kita rasakan kita tak buat yang terbaik dalam hidup kita.
Kenapa aku tak belajar pandai-pandai?kenapa aku buat tindakan bodoh camtu?dan banyak lagi yang kita rasa nak ubah.Ya,boleh renungkan untuk pengajaran tapi kalau rasa teramat menyesal tu,hidup kita takkan aman dan tenteram.
Orang kata..we should live well and in the end of the day..apa yang kita tanam akan membuahkan hasil dan harapan kita.
Mungkin ada orang nak kaya (saper yang tak nak kan??) dn ada yang nak ketenangan hidup.
Memori yang usang..itu adalah kemungkinan kita nk bersama balik 1st love kita dan maybe ex bf.Tambah lagi dah jumpa kat facebook,twitter dan tah pape lagi.
Aku rasa benda tu yang paling banyak orang nak buat,nak kembali ke zaman bercinta,bersama dengan kemanisan cinta yang indah.Sebab perasaan bila terjumpa kembali tu macam mimpi..seperti sebiji benih pohon willow yang bertunas,tumbuh di musim bunga..tapi akhirnya akan gugur jua bila musim luruh menjelma kerana ia hanyalah illusi,mimpi,fantasi dan takkan pernah jadi realiti dalam hidup yang sebenar ketika ini..
Dan banyak yang terjadi bila berjumpa kekasih lama ni..runtuhnya rumahtangga yang sedang terbina,pergolakan rumahtangga,kecelaruan hati dan perasaan dalam memilih pasangan..dan impak yang kadang-kadang lebih mendatangkan keburukan dari kebaikan.hanya mendatangkan masalah yang tak sepatutnya.
Sebenarnya..yang berlalu tu..biarkan lah.Tak perlu nak di ulangi lagi.Past is past..living in the past like a living in the dream..only illusion and obsession that lead you nowhere.Past,present and future can never be in one direction or one journey in our ife.Yes..its ironic..its sadness..but that's the fact.To know the person you ever loved.you ever cared is gone and return but the thing is you have to let them go..if their presence would harm you,would endanger your life.Even the tempted is too much,too hard to bear or resist..it should be no no…
Bak kata omputih..forbidden fruits is always taste sweeter but its also spoil faster..lebih kurang camtu la…

Dalam perjalanan hidup ni..kita akan harungi keperitan dan kebahagiaan..mengharungi terik mentari sebelum sampai ke bawah pohon yang rendang,yang akan meneduhkan kita,yang jadi tempat kita bersandar,yang memayungi kita dari hujan dan panas..tapi kita perlu melangkah biarpun kita terasa amat payah untuk meninggalkan pepohon itu.Biarpun amat berat kerana ia telah memayungi kita sekian lama dan berikan kita segala.
Untuk mengharungi terik mentari,berjalan di laluan yang berbatu,sempit dan memerlukan air mata dan ketabahan..sanggupkah kita meninggalkan teduhan itu??Selagi kita masih berada di bawah teduhan itu..selagi itulah kita akan statik..kita takkan kemana-mana..kita berada di suatu tempat yang sama hingga ke ahirnya..kerana takut meninggalkan keselesaan yang membelenggu diri.
Tetapi…kita perlu dan harus teruskan perjalanan.Kerana kita perlu sampai ke destinasi hidup kita.Perjalanan hidup harus diteruskan…
Begitu jua yang aku rasakan..hidup harus diteruskan jua.


Aku rasa di suatu ketika,dah tak ada apa lagi yang aku perlukan dalam hidup ini..kecuali di beri ketaqwaan yang kuat..kerana apa yang aku idamkan,aku impikan ketika zaman remaja dulu banyak yang telah Allah makbulkan.Dan aku pun bukanlah banyak meminta dalam kehidupan ini..cukup rezeki yang Allah berikan,dan apa yang aku cita-citakan,telah aku miliki waktu ni.Hanya lagi satu impian aku..nak ke Europe..insyallah akan aku jadikan realiti juga nanti.
Soal hati dan perasaan…hem kes berat..tp begitulah hidup ini,tiada yang abadi.nothing lasts forever..ada pasang dan ada surut.Tiada kehidupan yang sempurna,mungkin pada zahirnya serba indah tapi batinnya hanya diri yang merasai.
Untuk meneruskan kehidupan,dan kadang-kadang kita keseorangan sebenarnya dalam mengharungi hidup kita sendiri kerana hanya kita yang memahami segalanya tentang kita.Kdg-kdg mengharapkan seseorang akan berikan kita kebahagiaan tapi ingat,jika kita mengharapkan orang lain memberikan kita kebahagiaan,kita akan di selubungi kekecewaan.Kerana,sebenarnya kita tidak mampu mengubah sepenuhnya  insan yg kita dampingi mengikut sesuka hati,manusia bukan mesin.Dia ada hati sendiri dan keinginan.Juga,Pengalaman hidup mampu mengubah watak dan hati seseorang.
Kesedihan,kesayuan dan separuh nyawa kita melayang sehingga tak mampu bernafas lagi bila kehilangan seseorang kita abaikan walau hakikatnya separuh dari diri ini telah pergi bersama.
Kita pamerkan kekuatan hati,kecekalan dan ketabahan menghadapi hidup kerana itulah survivor.
Hanya yg kuat akan terus hidup.
Yang boleh berikan kebahagiaan dalam diri hanya lah kita sendiri..
Dan insan lain hanyalah rempah ratusnya.
Moga hatiku tabah selalu mengharungi kehidupan ini…

'Perfection is delusion,it doesn't exist'