Musafir dunia...

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Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda yang bermaksud:“ Bagiku berada di dunia ini ibarat seorang yang berjalan di tengah panas lalu singgah sebentar berteduh di bawah sepohon kayu yang rendang, selepas beristirehat seketika untuk menghilangkan penat, maka beredarlah dia meninggalkan pohon rendang itu dan meneruskan perjalanan”.

Inilah hakikat yang diajar oleh Rasulullah saw kepada umatnya, tentang kehidupan di dunia ibarat singgah berteduh di bawah sepohon kayu ketika panas. Bererti singgah sejenak sekadar berteduh untuk menghilangkan letih atau singgah mencari bekalan. Setelah badan kembali segar selepas rehat, seharusnya mereka tidak lalai untuk meneruskan perjalanan.

Contoh yang diberikan oleh Nabi tentang kehidupan di dunia ini amat mudah difahami. Meskipun Nabi menyebut ibarat singgah sejenak berteduh di bawah pohon yang rendang, tetapi kadangkala manusia menjadi asyik dan terlena, apatah lagi jika pohon tempat berteduh itu sedang berbuah lebat dan ranum. Berehat sambil makan buah-buah serta hembusan bayu yang nyaman sungguh mengasyikkan.

Life is..like a journey under a hot sun..along the road we endured joy and pain,combat with lost and despair..till we found a shady tree to shelter,to rest after long walk,a cozy place to comfort and cherish..but then..we must not fail to continue our destination,we still have to move on,still have to walk along the way..and leave the shelter we found.Along the way,we will found someone who touch our heart yet we must carry on to reach till the end road.

A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.
~James Allen

There is only one difference between a long life and a good dinner: that, in the dinner, the sweets come last.
~Robert Louis Stevenson

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when bad day hit

A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the director of his life.

~James Allen

There is only one difference between a long life and a good dinner: that, in the dinner, the sweets come last.
~Robert Louis Stevenson

It requires wisdom to understand wisdom: the music is nothing if the audience is deaf.
~Walter Lippmann

Geli dan benci

Benci tetap benci
takder benci tapi sayang
benci bawa ke mati
jangan kata hadap muka,dengar nama kau pun aku dah geli
Apatah lagi kau cuba nak menyibuk pasal diri ini
Nak tahu aku hidup ke dah mati??

Jangan percaya apa aku janji
Sebab aku hanya melepas diri
Mintak simpang aku nak ngadap muka kau hari-hari
You're not very my cup of tea!!

Sekarang kau aku dah anti
Jadi takpayah perasan kau hensem bagai Gabriel Aubry
Kalau awek kau macam tong guni
Lah..kesian dia kemaruk nak laki

Rupa buruk perangai teruk
Kau manusia atau pun beruk?
Muka aku mana nak taruk
Bila kau hemoi mcm kemaruk

Geli aku bila ingatkan
Kau bajet hensem tak sedar aku geli geleman
Sekarang kau berambus boleh jalan
Jangan cuba nak tunjuk rupa macam orang utan!!

My Blog

Happy birthday to my blog!Its been a year you've been my consolation,my shoulder to laugh and cry on..
...I started on August 2010 and today we on the end of August 2011.

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 The most view post is:
1.Oprah Collection
2.Lonely Quotes
3.Love Myth Tales

Overview Audience:
1.United States
2.India
3.Malaysia

My blog is neither a great book of knowledge..nor about revealing too much on my personal life..it's just a simple small thing I love and glad to post in here.
So I don't have to look around or surfing the same page I loved to view from nowhere.I straightly can view in my page instantly.Like Oprah thing.I love all the tip and the life coach from Oprah.com ( we woman just love the small thing happens around).
It's may not a popular blog or stand in list popular blog in search engine but my blog is myself.
I wish I could post constantly,creatively, and calm.

gumbira nak raya...

Lagi seminggu umat islam di Malaysia akan menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri 1432H..
Raya tahun ni kat Kedah.Alhamdulillah..rupa-rupanya terlalu banyak nikmat yang Allah beri pada aku sejak akhir-akhir ni..nak raya habis-habisan tahun ni sb next year balik Melaka pulak.
Tahun ni jgk nak buat reunion Sek Menengah dulu..malu jgk nk pi.
Dapat perfume,baju raya,dan duit raya,lappy,cukuplah kan..
Semoga hari-hari yang akan datang akan lebih indah,damai dan bahagia.
Aku bahagia hidup dan bernafas pada hari ini..

irrational

Tiada tapi ada.
Waras dalam kegilaan.
Nikmat dalam kepedihan.
Hati harus ditinggalkan seketika bila kebahagiaan menjelma.
Biarlah hati sendiri demi kedamaian yang abadi..

You are my saviour yet you are my destroyer.

*Sebelum engkau ke mari

Tiada resah
Tiada khuatir
Menjelang kemesraanmu
Yang dirindu
Hanya syahdu

Mengapa itu mahu jadi teman
Mahu jadi kekasih selamanya
Aku bukan lagi mainan dulu
Telah ku campakkan kau kemana
Kelautan hitam yang ku tahu
Pasti kita tak jumpa

Semalam itu semalam
Hari ini aku hidup
Dalam dunia yang aman


Kenangan kita lucutan
Kita bakar sama-sama
Pengalaman hidup siksa

To my lovely

First Time by:
© Maria D. Falcon

When I held you for the first time,
my life began to shine.
I knew then this life wasn't just mine.

I would do what it takes,
To help you correct your mistakes.
To get by the challenges you may face.

For our freedom many have fought,
Somedays will be good, others will not.
Always thank god for the life you got.

The world isn't perfect as you will see,
Having you here made it better for me.
When you're in need, by your side I'll be.
For you are my daughter for eternity.

Source: For You Are My Daughter For Eternity, Mother Daughter Poem http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/for-you-are-my-daughter-for-eternity#ixzz1VGqaVinc

Unfinished business

Its refer to the burden in your life.In your breath.
Its will weight you down and slower your journey..
Unfinished business may be refer to:
~ A lie,a pretending life you endure,the truth is you are the only one carry.
~ A secret your unable to tell or speak-afraid of the consequences once its blow out
~ The tragedy in your past that consume your future
~ Feeling of useless person
~ An anger,beeen bethrayed or a grudge dwell within you for something or someone (a monster that eat your soul)

"Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them... Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the Dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself...soulless and evil. You will be left with nothing but the worst experiences of your life."
A dementor is a Dark creature, considered one of the foulest to inhabit the world. Dementors feed off human happiness, and thus cause depression and despair to anyone near them. They can also consume a person's soul, leaving their victims in a permanent vegetative state, and thus are often referred to as "soul-sucking fiends" and are known to leave a person as an "empty-shell.
Dementors hold no true loyalty, except to whomever can provide them with the most people to feed off. They cannot be destroyed, though their numbers can be limited if the conditions in which they multiply are reduced, implying that they do die off eventually<sup>.

Why did I post an entry of the issue?
I believe within us there's always been an unfinished business,the thing we don't like to hear,don't want to see and pretending everything is done.
I carry it for many years,and felt sick of it.But I cannnot bear of the consequences,so its remains within me.The impact too greater and its eventually became my only  reason I carry  it along my journey.
The only way out will need a tremendous of courage and eternally speak the truth.
Benda-benda mcm ni la dlm hidup kita yang akan sentiasa menghantui,yang sentiasa pastikan kita tiada kedamaian dihati..ketawa tapi ada bebanan.Gembira tapi ada batasan..malah ia sentiasa ada,mengingatkan kita akan kewujudannya.
Ia selalu membuat diri kita tak pernah berhenti berfikir,mampu meletihkan minda dan jiwa..ia akan datang dan hilang tapi ianya tak pernah mati.
Ia seolah olah memakan sebahagian keheningan jiwa,sedikit demi sedikit dan akhirnya ia akan menguasai bila diri dah tak berdaya lagi..seumpama lagu 'aku dan sesuatu' dendangan XPDC..ia bisa hingga punah ranah dan mati seorang insan itu.
Aku dan sesuatu...(jiwang karat sikit ptg ni...)</sup>


Di telan pahit
Hendak ku buang terasa sayang
Engkau bermadu
Hendak ku minum engkau beracun
Kau bisa hingga punah-ranah
Dan mati akan diriku
Kau kebumikanlah aku di sini


Are Your Emotions Running You?
Take quiz @Oprah.com..

Your emotional response style is..
Stuck
People with this style understand their feelings but can't get over them. They tend to dwell on past events—say, the end of a relationship or some injustice once suffered at work—and believe that whatever emotion they are suffering will last forever.
The solution lies in addressing the emotion, rather than the experience that caused it. Instead of asking yourself, What did I do to deserve this? ask yourself, What can I do to feel better right now? When I invite my clients to try this exercise, they typically report back, "I did it, it felt great, but now I'm feeling sad (or angry or whatever) again." Well, of course—a bike ride or a meal at a four-star restaurant isn't going to change anyone's life permanently! I explain, "The good news is that you made the troubling emotion go away. And that proves that your worst fear—that you will feel this troubling emotion forever—is not valid." Often, this is the moment they realize that they are in control: By changing what they do, they can change how they feel.

How to Break Free??

Getting unstuck requires serious innovation. Here's a snazzy little trick from Oprah's favorite right-brain creativity expert, Daniel H. Pink, to get your creativity flowing.
There are lots of methods to spark creativity, but I like one used by the founders of an Australian software company: They set aside a day for their engineers to work on any problem they want, so long as it's not part of their regular job. These are called FedEx Days, because the participants have to "deliver" something overnight, and they've resulted in an array of software fixes that might otherwise never have emerged. Why shouldn't this idea be picked up by someone who's looking to switch careers or even just redecorate the living room? People underestimate how much a wildly varied group can accomplish in a short time. So enlist your own team with these ground rules: They can work on anything they want, but at the end of 24 hours everyone must deliver something—whether it's a list of fields where your skills might translate or a sketch of how the room could look. Don't worry about making it perfect. Worry about making it, period. And have fun. If you're not laughing during your FedEx Day, you're doing it wrong.

~This story is part of O's Live Your Best Year Toolkit
Read more: http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Daniel-Pinks-Advice-for-Getting-Unstuck#ixzz1VM1nJAez

Boredom land

This month -no entry which to explain  that..my mind had been freeze and dwell in a land of boredom.
Tengah stuck giler..and tiada inspirasi langsung.
Macamana nak increase traffic flow kalau gini la gayanya...

Boredom is an emotional state experienced when an individual is without any work or is not interested in their surroundings. The first recorded use of the word boredom is in the novel Bleak House by Charles Dickens, written in 1852,[1] in which it appears six times, although the expression to be a bore had been used in the sense of "to be tiresome or dull" since 1768.[2] The French term for boredom, ennui, is sometimes used in English as well.
In Chapter 18 of the novel The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde (1854–1900), the character Lord Henry Wotton says to a young Dorian Gray: "The only horrible thing in the world is ennui, Dorian. That is the one sin for which there is no forgiveness."
(Wikipedia sources)

What is the best way to kill boredom at work?
Tips from the internet users..

1.Best answer = Go to the toilet at your work and have a ****. Trust me, kills time, plus you'll be fresh for the day

2.go to wikipedia
-go to brainlesstales.com
-go to engrish.com
-shop online for the next birthday of a loved one
-think of something you need and price it online to see who has the cheapest one
-pay your bills
-call your mom or other loved one to say hi
-come up with a ten question quiz and send it to your friends, title it "10 just for fun.google a phrase that -applies to you and see what comes up; for example if you are say 28 type in "men under 30 should never" and then hit search, its super interesting what you can find that way

3.Just accept your boredom and let it pass. Just a momentary emotion moments come and go, be thankful for the bored moments, means your not rushed off your feet, when I am busy I would kill for a moment to be bored.
4.I'd typically use a knife or some other sharp object. Boredom is surprisingly good at dodging bullets and the like

5.That's easy. Play Pokemon TCG online!
Source(s):
www.playr.org/play/pokemon_trading_card_…

6.Oh in that case flash games are great as is Lifehacker etc.
If you're stuck doing a repetitive monotonous job like data entry or picking fruit in a field pretend you're playing a game and you'll get a high score. If you're watching security cameras pretend random things (like giant pink monsters) are following the people.

7.How about...doing your job!

~I made a choice to finally let go because I can't take pain its time for my last tear to fall and smile again..

~Relationships are like glass sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

Lonely street in heart

Internet lembab gila.Idea aku tgh mencurah-curah ni....sama ada aku tulis dlm blog aku atau the world will be consume by my insane.

Oleh kerana harini aku jiwang banget jadi aku attach lonely poem..saja..aku tak gila dan aku tak der wayar shot kt mana-mana ok.Apasal la org ni?asal jiwang ni takleh diterima dan selalu diketawakan.Tapi kalau jadi ganas sampai berbunuhan dan penderaan tu,suka pulak??(guna jer la alasan utk menwajarkan kejiwangan aku yg melampau).

~Lonelly life~
Lonely on the land I walk,
Lonely cross the sea I sail,
Lonely air of beach I stroll –
This lonely life doth take its toll.
Lonely trek of woodland trail,
Lonely mist in haze o’ dawn, Lonely spies the bird of prey
In lonely circles all astray.
Lonely be the dark of night
When sleep is but a yearning wish,
To dream of sweet companions close,
As wine would pair with diner's dish.
Lonely do these thoughts me make
That draw my blood of precious life; Replace with stream of flowing pain
To bless my veins with coursing strife.
Lonely years are now my friends,
Lonely cries bereft of sound,
Lonely tears that cool my face
In lonely life of sullen pace.
Copyright © Mark R Slaughter 1957

~Loneliness~
A lonely flower in a field
A lonely child does not yield
A lonely star in the night sky
A lonely man gives up to die
A lonely car in a lonely street
A lonely girl admits defeat
The loneliness affects us all
A gutless fight, a pitless fall
A lonely time in my daily routine
Sets the tone; a deserted scene
A lonely cow under a lonely tree
A lonely soldier, this is me
~Tess connor

why I hate my job;;

Lately i begun to hate my jobs.Get stress over it,and can't ease my my mind when i'm home.

1.I don't know the rules-the office political.still have to adapt the situation.

2.I don't know the meeting rules-do and don't s-main issue here.
fcuk and fcuk up.There so much rules here.If you honest enough then,get yourself prepare to be condemn and storm out.Don't try to show yourself here.Then sometimes I revealed my non-wise info to the board,of coz when so much stress from the chairman.
If you continue with your info,the chairman will cut you out and you loose your presentation.bullshit.
I hate been in meeting and hate to report coz somehow I will get condemn either.And after the meeting even when I'm home I still can't get over the meeting paranoid in a week.fcuk.Frankly speaking,before join the firm,i had attended sooo many meeting and never been like this before.So much protocol and like one way communication.Never had a meeting paraniod previously.Then,we weremeeting when new project coming or update of the company.It normally take place about 3 or five times a month.But now??a 3 or 4 a week!!
Still..it was me who need to adjust and adapt the new workplace culture.
So much to learn the etiquette and the rules.

3.Because i'm stupid.I think I am not that stupid before join this team but now i begun to question myself.
Am I qualified enough to be here?My self esteem sooner or later will gettting low, lower and dissapear.
I am doing good in my workplace but maybe the lack is the comunication skill.

4.I hate myself when I get condemn and when get critic in meeting.Somehow I will blame myself and confused

5.My ear.Have some problem with the multiple conversation.not clear.need to loud.Or am I a slower person.
I am begun to destroyed my myself here and inside.

Ohh why oh why..so much to adapt and so much they expect me to penetrate their workplace culture.

Now I am getting phobia to attend the meeting.Maybe I shouldn't be here.
I rest my case.
Drive myself crazy thinking of the meeting and gathering

Additional info from my lower point of my life..

Over and Out:
You know your relationship is past its use by date when:

`make excuse for why he can't come over because you'd rather curl up with good movies on Dvd
`feel embarrased,annoyed,insecure or just plain bored in his company
`struggle to find things to talk about over dinner`
`start screening your calls because you just don;t feel like talking to him (I do all the time)
`Find yourself constantly bitching to your girlfriends about him
`Realise that being around him lowers your mood/self esteem/enjoyment of going out
`Discover that the more you get to know him the less you like him
`Spend every waking moment feeling totally insecure about how h feels about you,whether you can trust him and whether you're good enough for him
`Want to change everything about him,from his clothes to the way he slups his coffee
`don't want to come out with your friend if he's coming because he's always say something cringeful and cling to you like pathetic puppy..

Sigh.

then..the feeling...

the confusion

daily...

baik dok kt gua..anti social behaviour

Rasanya aku ni elok dok bermastautin dalam hutan atau gua...

Can be describe as anti social,loveeee my privacy so much,
:asocial and antisocial are often used interchangeably in colloquial speech, but they are not the same thing; asocial means "avoidant of society" while antisocial means "hostile toward society".

1.Unwilling or unable to associate normally with other people
2.antagonistic, hostile, or unfriendly toward others; menacing
3.Opposed to social order or the principles of society; hostile toward society
I am social season..only during festive season I am social expert...the skills is not to be waste for daily routine.

1.Aku tak suka jawap tepon..tambah lagi num yang aku tak familiar.Kadang-kadang ntah sapa tah  yg try caring pun aku lyn kejap pastu aku dh malas nak jwp tepon dia.Yang aku musykil tu kenapalah bila aku tak jawap tepon dia pulak nak naik angin dengan aku.Marah aku pulak sb tak angkat tepon dan tak layan dia..dh tak pasal2 aku kena dengar nag dia..WTH??.Salah aku juga bagi num hp kt org psiko.Suka hati aku la nak jawap hp ke tak kan?Kadang-kadang (selalunya) aku malas nak jwp tepon,malas nk sembang ntah apa-apa sebab aku byk keja lain atau..aku suka bermalasan sambil tgk Adam Richman atau...Emmanuel Belliveau

2.Aku tak suka jwp msg hp org yang TAK PENTING.Malas aku nk jwp msg berikut:
'sihat?dh mkn?'
Aku selalu ignore jer msg-msg yang aku rasa tak perlu jwb.Dan perangai buruk aku,sekali org tak jwp msg aku aku akan balas dendam dgn tak jwb msg dia sampai aku perlukan dia nanti.

3.Lately aku tak suka nak log in facebook.Dan aku tak suka menwar-warkan aku buat apa kat fb..(ye..ngaku mula-mula dulu obses gak dgn fb tetapi mintak maap skrg ni aku rasa fb patut diharamkan di Malaysia macam kt China.)
Lemas jgk dgn perangai manusia2 di fb yang konon nak tunjuk best.Aduhhhh...hoho aku dah delete akaun aku di fb..fb actually annoying when small thing turn out a disaster.Biarpun kengkawan atau secret admirer tanya (perasan nak mampus) nak add fb..ohoho maaf yer..fb adalah memporakperandakan hidupku dgn tah pape maklumat yg perlu.dan kawan-kawan lama...dulu berlagak kat sekolah dgn kita sebab kita selekeh tetiba jumpa kat fb cam dulu dia best fren.hipokrit,tak ikhlas pun nak kwn.Yg penting takperlu jumpa bf-bf lama yg kita dah



4.Aku tak suka nak bermasyarakat sangat.kaum keluarga tu lain..tp aku tak suka expectation dari org lain.Contoh keluar U mesti keje best.,kete best dan bla..bla..then they look at you,treat you like they did ten years ago..esp from your hometown.Hello,zaman dulu you can mess with me but  if you do now,you better prepare to talk like i never met you.

5.Love my privacy,like to be alone,macam orang gila.Frankly, aku tak suka diganggu bila kt umh.
Believe me when I say-no news is a good news

Selalu kena attend dinner,but..
demi tugas dan tanggungjawap..aku gagahi jua..main problem is..lefthanded would feel awkward on dinner table.setting are design for righthanded.
Ni la masalah orang kidal...nak guna apa benda pun agak susah sebab kebanyakan tool di reka untuk golongan right-handed.Even kerongsang pun aku payah nak guna.

As professor Santiago explains, "a left-handed person has often the feeling of having been born in a wrong world. From scissors to computer keyboards designs, everything is projected for right-handers. The fact that left-handed people are able to adapt quite well to these manual controls that are contrary to their nature, indicates a first interesting fact that it is often overlooked: undoubtedly, there is a difference in motor ability between the dominant and the non-dominant hand, but it is far from being a great difference."

Gratitude..

Alhamdulillah..terlalu banyak yg aku telah nikmati..

1.Kesihatan yang baik dan tubuh yang elok..tiada kecacatan
2.Kejaya dan rezeki yang halal dan bersih..tak perlu nak buat jahat utk mendapatkan rezeki
3.Kemudahan dan kesengan dalam hidup..tak seperti sesetengah wanita- wanita  yg ditindas dan menjadi hamba keluarga mertua dan suami..
4.Kebebasan pemikiran dan kebebasan fizikal..tidak pernah ke penjara atau di kongkong di mana jua..hatta dirumah sendiri ada yg terpenjara oleh keluarga..mungkin sb dh tiada mak ayah..jd tiada expectation
5.Anak-anak yang comel dan sihat pengubat hati..thanks Allah.
6.Diriku adalah diriku jua..bkn sesiapa yg kau ingin aku jadi..inilah kebenaran terhebat dlm pemikiran seseorang insan tetapi masih tertakluk pada keizinan NYA jua...

Thanks for the air that I breath..

The blue sky and the twinkle star when I look up

The loveliness inside me...

The abundance of love and joy in my life..

                           The smile and crying on my lovely daughter expression ..

                                 The rules dos and don'ts surround me...

the trees along the way..

                                and everything I had endured along the path in  my days and life..

bad day

Today is like kind of bad day..I suppose to give a speech for a closing ceremony and they asked in last minute anyway.I hadn;t prepared though..there you go..what a speech i had murmured.Then came along with a stupid story of a cracked pot.Have heard that story?F..F..F#@^..
Feeling so down after that speech,i'm not at my best.
Don;t know bout the reaction but itsn't a clear story to be told to.Geezzz...

It's been a poison to my confident level and feel so stupid..
I'm a kind of nervous disorder in public speaking and why should I apply a job that require so much dealing with the function anyway?
That's have been a day i'm need to launch a program..sigh..not a credit though.

La di da di da...

lonesome



''Solitude is painful when one is young,but delightful when one is more mature'-Albert Eistein

 Tonight I can't sleep..so its good  to write anything to  lift some issue inside me.

In year 2011..hope life getting better..just work with a flow.People come and go most of the time.I don't give a damn if all my those rambling post is nothing and surely will be the only me who;s read it.
I had attended some trip and most of my working days are filled with the meeting,discussion,seminar,gosh so exhaused of attend the meeting.Mind my language but i'm not the best,the brightest,the prettiest of all.Needless to say I have nothing to be proud of.With a tough days and two kids in my hand,life go on.
Most of my time,i'm pack with my daily routine,but then deep inside my heart,there's an empty space that can never be filled.There are some place inside me that can never be replace..
"Where have all the good men gone And where are all
the gods? Where´s the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds? Isn´t there a
white knight upon a fiery steed? Late at night
toss and turn and dream of what I need
 I need a hero I´m holding out for
a hero ´til the end of the night
He´s gotta be strong And he´s gotta be fast And
he´s gotta be fresh from the fight I need a
hero I´m holding out for a hero ´til
the morning light He´s gotta be sure And
it´s gotta be soon And he´s gotta be
larger than life
Somewhere after midnight In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach There´s
someone reaching back for me Racing on the thunder
and rising with the heat It´s gonna take a
superman to sweep me off my feet
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above Out
where the lightning splits the sea I would swear
that there´s someone somewhere Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain And
the storm and the flood I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood..

maybe a hero like this..

 

or someone like him

...Someday feel life can never be complete  without love-
#someone to love and being love by someone.#
This statement would neither earn respect from your friend nor wish people around you to applaud.
This no no wisdom statement would make you either as a stupid woman who then will be labelling 'moron'woman live and die for the man',psycho or the 'fragile  woman on earth'.Then there will be a card to place on your table- 'be strong','love yourself is the most precious' bla,bla...
So most of the woman will ignore these sign of ..try to be strong as the words plastered in their head is - 'nothing smell worse to a man than a desperate woman'..haha..
The  period of longing  for a presence of a knight in shining amour,a hero to find a damsel in distress,and a superman to swept off the feet is like to wish an a genie appear from the old lamp..
Why i'm only 34 but I felt like a hundred years old....With no social life and tired old woman appearance,thats exactly what i felt.
This is not a complaint..but I will be dead with this feeling.
With the fat rose from 40% to 60% to cover my body..thats the bonus. (argh can't you stop complaining and working on it).Yeah,this is my true feeling, and the would never be a surreal feeling than this.
 I know and I am fully aware of the guideliness to lighten up your life:

a.Do the thing you love
b.Fill your day with the support group,club and hobbies
c.Look upon your future,not the past
And many more.
The choice is yours and yours alone.

Don't give a damn.Everynight I went to bed,I dream of living in Europe.haha..nice.We will be together and live happily ever after.(this is the most ridicilious thing I ever posted).keep on dreaming.
There's some incident that I wish would never occured at the first place like encounter  your old boyfren that you've been dumped a years ago.Its just will make life more miserable (i wish you you dead and burn in the hell).For that,don't ever try to undercover in fb just want to know my latest update.I had block you and I have nothing to do with you anymore.Fool me once shame on you,fool me twice shame on me.
You are the creature I hate most in my life.To see your face from a far alone can make me nausea.

So please get lost!! 
One thing i'm sure and trust myself  200%  is that once your true love(not 1st love) is gone,there will be never be a subside or amendment can be made.glass only fill half empty.
Don't give a damn.
Most of   my days and my life are good,bless and i had everything that one woman can asked for.
La di da di da....

  Nowadays I am playing this damn good song. You belong to me version by JasonWade over and over..even there's no one belong to me.

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sun rise from the tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me ...
See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me '''
And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too
Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me ...

My very own qoutes line refer to my die alone issue  is:
"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,but to see who cares enough to break them down"